When I counted your age in weeks I understood you a little better,
I could distinguish what cry was for what,
I could put you down and know you would still be in the same spot when I returned from the toilet.
Yes the sleepless nights were long but they were my chance to breath you in. To get to know you.
When I counted your age in weeks I was still in that bubble, still in that euphoric place where you could do no wrong.
The new born days are beautiful.
It’s true what people say, make the most of them. Time goes so fast. They will have grown before you know it.
At 13 months. I’m struggling.
I’ve lost any ability to decipher your noises.
The sleepless nights now are because you are poorly and it breaks my heart I can’t make you feel better.
Sleepless nights now seem hard work. I can’t just feed you back to sleep.
When I put you down now your off in a flash.
You are toddling around more than you crawl.
There is no chance I can leave you to nip to the toilet.
Nothing 2ft high is safe from your grasp.
The toddler years feel so much harder for me.
But we will get there. I know we will I’ve done it before even if you haven’t.
For now just trust me when I say your safe, when I say im coming back, when you think I’m trying to poison you with foods you don’t like.
Oh littlest twins. Toddler years are such a bumpy ride. But We can do this.
We can do this because you have both developed your own little personalities.
You are learning everyday. Developing and learning.
You are amazing little humans just like your big brother & sister.
That’s why I wanted to write this little post. To remind myself now matter how tough it is you are amazing!
Mummy. X
